Come Alive!
Picture a stone heart, cold, and hard. But then it gets chipped, a little piece falls off to the ground. That stone piece is just a covering, where it fell from, there’s a glimpse of a beating heart. That small section of heart is alive and beating, pumping blood. That’s what my heart feels like. I’m just beginning to come back to life.
I know I said at OIL that I felt on fire and I truly meant it. I think that it was just the emotions though. It was a glimpse of what it’s like to be on fire, a glimpse, perhaps, into this semester. Since then the, the fire’s fallen down, the last week of break was unproductive but those embers we prayed for during OIL small group are still there. I’m throwing a few logs of prayer and Word back onto the embers and it’s coming back to life. Slowly this heart is coming back to life.
Yesterday and today, P.Min’s been hard on us and he has every right to. I see it in my life. I’m not as hungry as I once was. Junior year, I was on fire. I’m talking about En Fuego! Since then, my heart’s become more hard and old. I need to return to that purity, unashamed, unhindered desire. As I’ve gotten older, the pressures and stress have taken a toll. The complaining, struggling, and falling have hardened this heart. Young’ns pray now! It only get’s harder to love Jesus as you get older. Mike reminded me of something so true when I met w/ him the other day.
We have two natures, our Pure Nature and our Sinful Nature. Everyday, our sinful nature is growing even though we try to fight it. We wrestle with sin and if we overcome, our heart comes up with two new ways to sin. It is always growing though we fight it. The way to overcome is to fight it and at the same time to make our pure nature grow so much faster. So though we are sinning more each day, we are loving Jesus so much more day after day that it will appear as our sinful nature is disappearing. I need to grow that pure nature in my heart. Pastore Min gave good insight into how to grow this pure nature. We need to observe how our sinful nature grows. How are we sinning and learning to sin more. Then take that and apply the principle to our pure nature. Our sins always wants one more so we should always want one more of what’s good. One more hour of prayer, one more chapter of the Bible. Sinful thoughts creep into our mind. Then put good thoughts into our mind by meditating on the Word. We need to learn how to not only fight our sinful nature but how to grow our pure nature so that we can become like Jesus. And slowly this heart is growing and coming back to life.