Small Group Leading
OIL has supported what other people and tests have been telling me. I think one of my spiritual gifts is leading small group and that’s not to say that I’m good at it. I think I stink and I look at myself and know there are many areas I need to improve upon. What shocks me the most is the fact that I don’t know what I’m doing yet people get blessed and grow. Seriously, I don’t know what I’m doing as a small group leader most of the time. I just try to be myself and do what I do know what to do or feel like doing. P.Min shared during Market Place Biblestudy how serving in areas where you are gifted does not wear you out but seems to energize you and I feel that way about serving small groups. Sure they cause me headaches and heartaches at times, make me worry, feel inadequate, inept, lost, and depressed but I just love doing it. Seeing someone get blessed even years down the road makes it all worth it. I’m pretty sure I’m reaping so many other people’s fruit as my OIL Small group is making me pray because I’m getting proud b/c of what they’re saying about me. I know it’s not me and all God.
I know this is probably warped because it was at OIL but I wish they could be my small group as well as my beloved CRH12, who I miss and am excited to see again. I see so much potential in them and I just want to be a part of their spiritual life. I’m glad and feel very honored that God would allow me to play a small role in their spiritual lives. That the threads of our lives could interweave for just a few days. I’m excited to for what God will do through their lives as He trains them to become Kingdom Workers.