The Hunt For Red October
This has nothing to do with the movie or submarines or October but it has all to do with the hunt. I just got back from the Dating Seminar: A Biblical Model. I’m alot different from when I first heard it. Things have changed, I have changed, and I need to change more. I’m currently straddling the preparation stage / friendship stage. I’ve established a bunch of non-negotiables and have a pretty good idea of what I’m seeking in a wife, but I know I’m not the Man of God my wife needs. If she’s the woman of God I need, I wouldn’t fit her bill. As P.Milo said today. “If you’re spouse is leaps and bounds ahead of you spiritually, why would he want you? What do you bring to the table for him? Are you just selfishly looking to edify yourself through the relationship?” So true. I need to get back on track and continue fighting this heart and being molded.
I was reading through the Bible today and I came across the account where David marries Abigail. I love this story cuz this is the kind of wife I need. Someone so full of wisdom, who knows how to act correctly. Someone incredibly humble, bowing dow low before David. Someone who knows God, she uses God to reason with David for his case. Someone full of compassion, for a wicked husband and for the purity of David. I would rank her up there with the Proverbs 31 woman and ahead of Ruth (who had incredible faith, trust, boldness, courages during a time of great evil and despair). That’s the kind of woman I need. Then the question to me is, am I that kind of man?
I was talking to a friend the other day and he always wants to know all this stuff. I tell him answers but he never believes me. Partly cuz I’m answering in a joking manner, but I tell the truth. One thing I kept on saying was how messed up he is and how much he needs to repent. Then he asks me what I really think and I reply with the same answer. Not because I’m mean, but because I care, but the truth is, I’m really talking about myself. I’m so messed up inside. My mind is so screwed up, my heart so weak, my prayers so unmoving. I need to fight so much harder. I’ll leave you with a verse that is one of my small group leaders favorite verses which I would steal for my own but I’ve got too much pride to copy off someone: Eph 3:20-21 “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”